"The Boy"

The characters in my little universe usually display different sides or interpretations of me as an individual. The Boy (which yes, is the same character in “Watered Down Hues“, “My Disintegration“, “Faith in God“, as well as several others) shows the more damaged and physically challenged perspective of me. On a very personal level this character is very insulting and is the most brutally honest of all the other characters within my story. (Hence, why he is really the main protagonist in this whole thing.) Not that many people know this on the internet, but I have this condition called Marfan's Syndrome, nothing too life threatening, but it's physical symptoms do include having fragile bones and looking rather thin. People with the condition usually have long skinny fingers, thin legs, and I have had several surgeries on my heart, spinal cord and hip that have left me getting around with the assistance of a crutch (or cane).

In a nutshell, The Boy is the one character that is the most representational of me. Some people might think I draw these things just to draw them, but as you can see a lot of my work is very personal, and at times a lot more depressing and haunting to me than what others might interpret.

The Boy in my universe is mainly looking for clarity and answers to why things are so screwed up in his world, often depicted with his arm reaching for something more. (Read the passage in "He Still Holds A Grudge", which basically sets the foreground of the entire story.) As one of the very few survivors of the brutal and relentless attack brought on by The People of the Sky, The Boy sets out on a quest to get the answers from God. My story, if interpreted and analyzed can be very cynical and is definitely very anti-God and I often insult Christianity and religion throughout. However, in spite of the anti-religion themes, The Boy was brought up to believe that God exists and that he is a very loving figure who cares so much about his children.

The longing for answers and peace of mind are very representational to my own life. The Boy is my way of saying how I am looking for clarity in my life as well as trying to reconcile with my own demons. Sometimes the battle can be very difficult, especially since he (more often then not) is my demon and my own downfall.

The Boy is how a view myself. Lost, broken, and battled. I gave him an optimistic attitude because sometimes it’s all I have. In spite of all that has happened to him. Surviving the attacks, seeing his friends, lover, and family killed before his eyes, (and walking from one end of the Earth to the next) he never once sank into depression, like I, as a person has. In that sense, one can say that he is a small symbol of hope. His blind faith keeps him going and my small hope (however damaged) in humanity keeps me going.

Nevertheless, The Boy was created with the intent to symbolize the various consequences of what can happen to those who are brought up to believe that life is a happy-go-lucky kind of place. The Boy is an example that the people in your life will leave you one day and those that you look up too will disappoint you eventually.

The Boy is my life.

He is my heartache, my loneliness, and my cold, dry, depression.

He is my reality.

[ Artwork featuring The Boy ]
"The Attack"
"A Moment to Myself"
"A Song For Two"
"Drained"
"Dry"
"Faith in God"
"His Story"
"Migraine"
"My Disintegration"
"terminal illness"
"Watered-Down Hues"

Welcome..

..to "Further Down The Crash."

This journal is a companion site too my personal blog, “Another Pilot Down” which deals with my daily (mis)adventures, thoughts, critiques, and views. Here in “Further Down The Crash” you can expect comprehensive details on my artwork.

For the those few of you that have kept up with my more personal, darker, and provocative works, you’ll be able to read even further into my work as I explain the symbolism, imagery, and themes that run throughout each piece. I will also go into background information on the creative process and what I was thinking during the time of creating the drawings.

As boring (or conceded) as this concept sounds, I feel I have a lot to say and will try (to the best of my ability) to make a lot of the notes and commentary be interesting for my readers. I’d also like to use this as a great way to further my writing abilities and exercise this need to write as a journalist of some kind.

So I hope I can persuade you all to stick around for a while. There are some things in my artwork that I am sure not many people read into and I really feel it’s time to explain a lot of these interesting facts and notes to my friends.

Visit “Another Pilot Down” to catch up on my daily activities as well as to see when new artwork and poems will be released. Don't forget you can also catch my personal website, "The Many Shades of Jorge Gonzalez", MySpace, DeviantART, and Facebook.